today went to work. dead tired, because i slept 2 this morning and 6 in the morning on the previous day(^_^;) i know, i am asking for it...(=o=) then today's work time was 11 to 10, which means i stood for at least 11hours!! (O.O) my legs are falling apart now....(TT TT) tomorow meeting my secondary schoolmates at 9 in the MORNING to go back and 9 at NIGHT to send JL off...kekeeke. realised the similarities, right? why does everyone love 9 so much....(= =)


this version is sooo nice and it is so LOVED(smiles)... parkbom is preeettaye!! kekekekekeke.

yaryar...
my "batteries" are running low already...
안녕~!!

this few days are alright. not too much things running through my mind right now, test have ended and holidays have started.

thursday, after work went for some grocery shopping, by myself!! bought some watermelon and finished it all by myself. i didn't eat much, thats why i have lots of "space" in my tummy((: and bought things for potatoe salad as sis wants to make them...


the day before, went to have lunch with steph, grace and nic at PS. walked around before steph and grace set off to SMU to study because was toooo full after eating, i mean really FULL!! then went home after walking a while more with nic as she have CGM and needs to go home and get things. went home and drew on a pair of shoes. the shoes are just nice and my feet feels so uneasy, but i love what i drew((: my sis says it looked like a map, for bird's eye view(the one on the left)=.=...


now, i'm still thinking whether to go for the JIVE camp. there is no one i know, and people whom i know, and are going might not be in the same group. as you know i get all uneasy/quiet when it comes to people i dont know...(^_^;)
still thinking about it, coz if i don't go, they will deduct my CE point. if i knew that it will become something which requires me to crack my head, i would not even sign up (X.X) nvm, what is done is already done.

(sigh)isn't me a friend? just talk to me, i won't blame or bite you...
i'm not that petty, or do i look like one? i might be angry and stuff, but i'm sure not petty.
friends are for you to go to when you have troubles, dont they?


You hang the stars
Your Love makes them glow
You care for the Lilies, the sparrows You Hold
I open my eyes
Your mercies unfold
When I close my eyes, there's one thing I know

Jesus Loves me
Calls me His own
Jesus Loves me
He makes me whole
Jesus Loves me
Heart overflows
It is well, it is well with my soul

You took my pain
And carried Your Cross
You kept all my tear drops
And shed them like Yours
You felt all my grief on Calvary's hill
Your heart was so broken
Now I can be healed


so yar...
안녕~!!

just now after communication exam, which is the last paper... when to XY's class and watched their class video. super funny, they have lots of comments for every funny and made everyone laugh like crazy. after that, actually wanted to go home. but XY and dillon wanted to eat, so we went to civic mac and ate. (bow 90 degrees)thanks, dillon for the treat(coz he said that they PSed me the other day and went to eat then after bus-ed home...

today is the start of my 5 weeks of holidays...not really excited though. to many things are happening right now...
things like my great-grandmother passed away, i coulden't go back bcoz of work(i shoulden't have told them i wanna work on thurs) and now i also can't ask my mum to sign the baptism form(she is not in a good mood)... (argh)

tomorrow i'm gonna be all alone at home... papa and mama going back, bigbro going school and then sisi going work... that will be the schedule for my holiday day 1... (sigh) they are gonna be back on friday i guess, latest by saturday... i previously thought that they are gonna go back just for a visit, but i didn't know that it was for my great-grandma. she was in hospital for abservation for the past 2days bcoz of stroke. bcoz her heart was failing, the doctor already told my grandma in advance to prepare bcoz she is gonna "go" anytime. (sigh) i never gotta chance to see her.

.........
for that period, i thought i knew you and understand you...
now, the signs that you are showing me is that you have changed...
don't even try to tell me that people always change...
because i don't believe peole can do it so drastically in such a short period of time span...
in the past, when people ask me what happened to you or where are you, i could easliy answer them without thinking. just because we talked and updated each other...
now, when people as the same things, i will never have a definite answer, i would stammer. because i coulden't even find you and contact you...
i don't even know you now...

there are tons of stuff in my mind now and i still seem to be unable to sort them out now.... (-"-;)irritaed.

gotta go now...
안녕~!!

was watching 2PM's Wild Bunny, hilarious, simply an entertainment...
but it can only let me forget the things on the surface....
there is now simply to much things happening at one time...
people are leaving, care-less....
there are tons and tons of words that can be able to describe how i feel now...
i just can't find one now...
WHY?
why is the devil keeps coming in and inflicting this kinda agony/fustration in us??
fun heh?
irritated....

i'm better now. thanks people((:
i'm studying for my enterprise test later at 1100...TT TT
things are like still not going in, the test is like later!!
and i still have the formulas for some CPF stuff haven't remember yet!! *frown*(-"-)
later on going SMU to study with stephie and gracey, maybe also with vann...
i don't know.
should i go on bus or train?
apparently,both ways i also don't know how to get to SMU business(^-^;)
sigh... i'll try.
hope i don't get lost, in bras barsah. kekekeke.

gtg continue studying...
안녕~!!

i'm really kinda dumbfounded now..
nothing much that i can say, i guess??
i'm here to confess...
this may be my biggest secert...
i was lukewarm, maybe for the pass 2 years??
but now, i finally see that spark, that can set that fire, and it is starting to catch fire...
but now, things are starting to happen that as if things are here to fan that fire away from me...TT TT
why?

i'm really disappointed...
don't be mistaken, it is not in others...
but myself!!
i thought i was gonna have another good or even bestfriend in my life, no matter to me or the friend...
the person knows what i like, i hate, what suits me, what doesn't, have friend that i mostly have... the list will go on(maybe only to me, for this situation?)
maybe i'm partially at fault?
not caring enough? not able to talk individual through? not able to speak up? too self-centered? too "don't care"?
i really dislike "Goodbyes", can't we say "see you" instead??
it may sound alright to you people, but really...
i dislike farewells....TT TT
please....

p.s. i know. there might be circumstances that pulls you, but friends are supposedly be the people to run to for help or cry your hearts out(and console you if we are unable to help). but apparently, i'm already not(?) a friend to you. but i'll forever be a friend to you, no matter what you are facing. FIGHTING!!
p.s.(2) maybe i'm not as cheerful that i thought?

Who sleeps in bed next to you?
its not a "who", but "what"... my bloster and the big green pillow(i think its a present from xy long ago)XDXD

Have you ever lied to a teacher to get out of a deadline?
i don't think so.

What kind of books do you read?
i don't really love to readXP

What’s your occupation?
STUDENT!!

What’s really creepy?
DRAGONFLY!! creepy stuff?? LOL.

Who is your celebrity crush?
Nope.

What’s your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
bed, sleep, my hair~

What are you listening to right now?
i think i saw love - F.T Island

What food could you eat every day for weeks and not get sick of?
nothing... i get sick of thesame kinda food very easily...

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
FB, myblog, other's blog and ALLKPOP!!

What was the last thing you bought?
my lunch...

What is the one thing you’ve lost recently?
a button....

Say something to the person who tagged you:
don't blur blur!!XDXD

had a great time at the NDP'09 just now... will update once i get photos from vann...
i was spectacular, excited me... but am i cheer-ed up?
maybe its not time change = people change...
but different situation = people react differently?
for that maybe i still have a long way then i can understand that...
that was someone that cared for me, called me, talked to me, helped me, concoled me when i was down, joked with me, ....
she is just like my closest sister...
i'm lack of words now...
after tearing for countless nights, eyes are dried and a little swollen...
*sigh*

today was quite good, i'll tell you why is it only quite good:
lets start with the good things...
- srv was SUPER GOOD!! pastor preached something about praise and worship...
- great to fellowship with N284, seems like we have gone back to the past(but somethings have changed now)...
- had a good time talking to the members, after a long time(but there was this person keep using the rubber band to shot me, you should know who you are...)...
- invited to Dasiree's b'day chalet...
now the no good ones....
- today, people are like quite depressed about something...
- cried early in the morning while thinking about it...
- almost cried when i was telling vann something...
- my mind is kinda in a mess now...
- heartbroken-ed??
- time changes = people change too??

thats why today is only quite good, because the SUPER good + NO good = QUITE good.
*sigh* so yar...
got to go sleep, tomorrow going NDP with vann...
안녕~!!




may'08 - N284(before multiplication)




JUNE'09 - N444(after multiplication)

the one that i worte*laugh*
i pixelate-ed it!! XP

got back from work, just finished my RJ and all... i'm down with flu and all, AGAIN!! *thinking*i wonder how does my nose work??
anyways, today quite a number of people talked to me about their problem or vent for their anger/fustration to me.
God is really good
i thank God that He put with classmates that are willing to tell me their fustrations, vent for their anger(complain abt people) or even as simple as talking and chatting with me.
because He know what i am weak/unable in and puts me in situation that can let me grow even stronger.
i must have a thankful heart.

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connected to the pic up there. our math faci, Mr. eric goh had asked us to write a feedback to him(as the semester is gonna end soon TT TT).... and he showed us this video for illustration(to show us what to and not to do). but i find it really funny, but a little insulting. enjoy, heh??XD



so yar...
안녕~!!
(i wonder who reads my blog....*thinking*)

1.Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
사랑후애(譃愛, after love) – F.T Island
[Comment : LOL! No link -.-!]

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
little superhero girl – corrine may
[Comment : can I fly?]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
all I need is you – the click five
[Comment : heh??]

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
미워하고 원망하고 (hate and resentment) – F.T Island
[Comment: hate? I don’t. Resent? Way no!!]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
where is the love – black eye peas
[Comment : =.=]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
사랑같은 거(something like love) – Brand new day
[Comment :I knew that they love me((:]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
if everyone cared – all the right reasons
[Comment :huh??]

WHAT IS 2+2?
my humps – black eye peas
[Comment : LOLXDXD OMGoodnesssss….so funny]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS?
Hey! (Don’t bring me down) - DBSK
[Comment: no they don’t]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
사랑을 보았나봐 (I think I saw love) – F.T Island
[Comment : aha….]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Elevate your name – Annabelle(CHC)
[Comment : yeah man!!]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Lucky – Britney spears
[Comment : Lucky?? How lucky?? hahahahaha]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
uptown girl - westlife
[Comment : what the crap!!]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
yesterday – the Beatles
[Comment : not bad….]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
déjà vu - Beyonce
[Comment : kekekkekeke….]

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
애인만들기 (making a lover) – SS501
[Comment : o.O??!!]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
fallin’ – Alicia keys
[Comment : fallin’?? where??]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I just want you – Annabelle(chc)
[Comment : love you all(L)]

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
사랑해(I love you) with Kim GunMo – SNSD
[Comment : that’s not the worst thing…. I guess]

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
show me how to live – CCC oxford falls
[Comment :heh?? How?]

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
나쁜 마음을 먹게해 (fight the bad feeling) – T-max
[Comment : =.=]

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
I’m not missin you – Stacie orrico
[Comment : I have never had a one to begin with=.=]

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
numb – linkin park
[Comment : cramp and die in the sea??]

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
永遠(forever) - BoA
[Comment : forever? Heh??]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
if I ain’t got you – Alicia keys
[Comment :I was thinking about it all along… coz I’m the youngest of all….]

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
when it all falls apart – the veronicas
[Comment : Hahah! Monkey King leh. Miao Siao Siao wor.]

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
HUG - DBSK
[Comment : LOL. Not true, have minimum once a week…=.=]

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
FIND – SS501
[Comment : find?? Find what?? Gold??XD]

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
how you love me now – hey monday
[Comment : I won’t tell that kinda thing to yohei…. He will “sumo” me I guess….]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
let’s do this – miley cyrus
[Comment : hehe]

ojust look at the photos...*yawns*
out with sis, then went for FOP'09 DAYII.


CHC 20th anniversary

P.S. reached home after FOP'09 at 12plus...)):
P.S(2). reached indoor at 8 plus, the crowd looked like 10 times of that when there was a craze Hello Kitty...=.=
P.S(3). fell asleep during aniversary srv1(steph pushed my head=.=). almost in srv2.
P.S(4). got bullied by a chao-keng security during break(anniversary) while waiting for steph!!
P.S(5). ate at foodcourt @ kallang leisure park, sat at the balcony(which i think is not appropriate), the security like scratch head. coz its filled with church peeps with umbrellas!!
UMBRELLA GANG!!
P.S(6). the photo quality sucked like crazy after putting in blogger....=.=

so yar...
안녕~!!