lets SHRUG our shoulders together^^

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close?

Tuesday, December 01, 2009 8:35 pm

i think we are not that close after all...

i feel insignificant when i'm with you all.

all that is coming back, quite the same feeling when i first started here, in that place.

sometimes i really can't relate/connect with people, they find me weird or it just how i look??

maybe they think i'm weird, sometimes i really think that i'm hereditary autistic, just like my elder brother. although i have more friends then him, but he seems to be more happy in school then i do....

i can be more quiet then him, i can stone for the whole day not coming in contact with people, anyhow think...

is that signs of autism?

if it isn't why am i like this?

i can laugh all i want at their jokes, but they seem to look at me weirdly...

am i really that weird?

or am i too quiet?

that i look like some crazy person...

guess i won't get answers...

why can't i be with people that are more willing to talk/interact with me?

i know i'm there for a reason....

but what's the reason?

one word: weird