i'm really kinda dumbfounded now..
nothing much that i can say, i guess??
i'm here to confess...
this may be my biggest secert...
i was lukewarm, maybe for the pass 2 years??
but now, i finally see that spark, that can set that fire, and it is starting to catch fire...
but now, things are starting to happen that as if things are here to fan that fire away from me...TT TT
why?

i'm really disappointed...
don't be mistaken, it is not in others...
but myself!!
i thought i was gonna have another good or even bestfriend in my life, no matter to me or the friend...
the person knows what i like, i hate, what suits me, what doesn't, have friend that i mostly have... the list will go on(maybe only to me, for this situation?)
maybe i'm partially at fault?
not caring enough? not able to talk individual through? not able to speak up? too self-centered? too "don't care"?
i really dislike "Goodbyes", can't we say "see you" instead??
it may sound alright to you people, but really...
i dislike farewells....TT TT
please....

p.s. i know. there might be circumstances that pulls you, but friends are supposedly be the people to run to for help or cry your hearts out(and console you if we are unable to help). but apparently, i'm already not(?) a friend to you. but i'll forever be a friend to you, no matter what you are facing. FIGHTING!!
p.s.(2) maybe i'm not as cheerful that i thought?