weird feelings, i guess... nowadays i'm very mindful about my everday grades in school, and i wonder will i ever do well or not. i really can't concentrate and during presentation, i really don't know how to express myself about my points and my opinion. maybe i'm too protected by the things and peoples around me, or too use to them, thats why when i come to this completely new place, i got lost... i'm not sure whether that i'm a friend to my classmates or not... some of them are really nice and they are like good friends to me, but some, i really just can't communicate/connect with them. maybe they think i have a weird personality, or i'm unapproachable, thats why i don't really have lots of friends?? maybe thats why i sometimes dread to go school?? and i will fall ill?? i'll never know... .... i don't know... maybe they just don't like me?? or they hate me?? i'm weird? not funny? not co-operative? too quiet? too noisy? i don't know... this feeling suck big time... and i don't know how to deal with it........