i can't believe it...i'm freaking enlisted to go for NS is m'sia... super angry.... what am i suppose to do?? what will happen?? will i survive?? thats not all the problems in my mind now.... i'm freaking sad about something else... i didn't know i would "miss some peoples" until now... i think i would cry everyday if i go there... i will miss home... i will miss my family... i will miss my friends... i will miss my CG.. i will miss church... i will miss dinner with my family... i will miss going to church... i will miss going crazy with the sisters and brothers... i will miss going out all of them... i will miss anything/anyone that is all around me... how am i gonna survive?? HOW?? although i'm still 3 years away.. i'm already very sad by just thinking about it... what will happen when i'm in it?? i'm scared... i don't wanna leave.... i don't want.... its really hard... its not like able to come home every week... i'm going for a freaking 3 months.... i can't go without anyone of them around me... HOW??!!