i feel lousy. i feel bad that i can't travel back to m'sia to see my grandfather...i wanna go back...but i can't... i need to wait till after my Os... i miss him badly. although i'm not really close to him...but i have the sudden "feel" of going back to SARAWAK!! coz its chinese new year...and somemore my grandmother passed away about a year a ago...and he is like very lonely... and my dad's siblings also not really free coz they have business to look after...my grandfather is thoes kind that loves us, grandchildren to stick with him. and the most "sticky" one, kevin, has already went to the city to work...i feel sorry that i can't go back...
i miss them badly...
p.s. its not that i don't miss my grandma(mum)...coz she has alot of my aunts, uncles and cousins that live with her in the house...
I WANNA GO BACK AND SEE THEM ALL!!!!
pressure is on me....i have to work while i study. i can't have proper sleeping time... and can't really concentrate for the 1st few lessons of everyday school. *sigh* i can't really complain...its my own will...i have to work for extra allowance and for A&B... its not i'm stubborn, its that i wanna try to "work" some money out to buy my own books and stuff...although sometimes i do over-spend...so ya....
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praise the lord, my relationship with my elder bro is better...
we would not have frequent argument anymore...=))
i'm trying to fit into the CNY mood....*smile*
