it doesn't only happen only on one thing i do...
it is a lot of things...
o1. after i eat something extremly sweet.
o2. after a really heavy meal.
o3. when i get really restless.
o4. actually i will get "high" REAL easy. ( this only happens when the person know me like 2 to 3 months.*laugh* )
so when i get "high" and do weird things...
don't get shocked...
------------------------------------------------------------------------
acutually i'm feeling helpless inside...
don't know what is my aim...
i'm like living on with nothing in mind...
walking aimlessly...
scared to be sent back m'sia...
or whole family move back...
everyone seems to draw futher instead of nearer...
even my sister...
now i don't dare to tell her secerts...
don't ask me why...
i don't have the guts to tell her or speak to her...
everytime i tell her about the things that happen when i'm out with friends...
she will ask...
"is it your church friends??"
she gives me that "look"...
that i'm afraid that a friend/family member will do...
a "look" that i will feel alone...
i will quickly change the subject...
so i feel that my sister has changed since she knew i went to church...
i'm scared.
